This is not a diary!

FOR YOUR INFO

2009-03-30T07:54:00.000-07:00

* screamo is not popular
* screamo is not mainstream
* screamo is not featured on the warped tour
* screamo is not for sale at hot topic
* screamo is not trendy bullshit
* screamo is not on tv
* screamo is not on radio

DID YOU KNOW SCREAMO?

2009-03-30T07:53:00.000-07:00

Screamo is a small tight knit grassroots musical community. It is linked directly to emo (yet another thing most of you kids know next to nothing about). Screamo emerged in the early mid 90's both in the states and in parts of europe, some early screamo bands were Anomie, Saetia, Portraits Of Past, and Orchid. Screamo proved to be a faster more abrasive counter part to it's parent genre emotive hardcore (emo).

Now for the final key pieces of info: NO, screaming does not make you "screamo", screamo is deemed as such based on the actual music, sure the vocals come into play but it has most to do with the actual music, for example Neil Perry, Yaphet Kotto and a few others have actual written completely instrumental screamo songs

war (circus) is over

2009-03-26T05:50:00.000-07:00

tersadar ku disini
ku berdiri sendiri
tanpa seorangpun di sisi
saat kau tak ada disini

detak jantung ku semakin kencang
melihat apa yg telah terjadi disana
seseorang berseragam
membunuh temanku dengan sebuah peluru
kapankah ini berakhir?

and now i'm walking to defend myself
and runaway faraway from here
i'm hiding from them
i just wanna the war is over

make it peaceful
make the world smile
without a war
we're live in peace
the war is over
tonight....

kau bukan segalanya
kau bukan tuhan
kau tak berhak menentukan takdir untuk mati!

stand alone

2009-03-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

i wanna have the same last dream again
but i dont know and cant guess its gonna be okay (but now)
i cannot breath with this memories
i just walk into the stairs and take a shot
as the sun goes down, its like a drama lessons
and the barber gone wild

and dont let my self down
so hear me please
i wont be one of them
sitting on the graveyard waiting for the juggment day
so hear me please

this voice from my own's heart
and if its gone to fight
i'll fight you alone
by my self, even do you will not kill me.

your last words make me feel seperated
i feel so weak, there's no solution.
this conversation lost the line.
i feel so weak.

forgive me,burn my letter,feel more better.
i cant pretend it will be okay.

kembali

2009-03-26T05:47:00.000-07:00

takkan pernah bisa aku melupakan
semangat yg kau berikan di hari ini
semua terekam layaknya sebuah film
namun kau telah menghilang
di saat aku siap memberi sebuah harapan
ini adalah kisah yang takkan terlupakan.

satu harapan tuk bertemu kembali
di saat semua berakhir
kau kembali mengisi hari ini
satu impian yang tak pasti
kembali disini...

kutelan semua pahit ini
dan berjalan di antara ludah yg membasahi langkah ku
segala harapan untuk bertemu kembali
dan aku meyakinkan semua akan kembali

namun tak seperti yang ku harapkan
sekejap semua berubah begitu cepat
kau tak lagi sendiri
kau tak bisa kumiliki

for your eyes only

2009-03-26T05:44:00.000-07:00

im wasting my time again
this beautiful lies like a chainsaw
slice my head and hurt me again.
do you remember me when you get there
or your love is gone with another man

realize your mistakes
regret your promise
take my heart
on the 13th street in the center of the earth
bury me right now!

for your eyes only,
i said "i'm not sad without you"
in a single fucking breath
one last breath!
i'm whispering to you
"i'm not sad!"

lies...
above the graveyard
i hear the fear in the grave
whisper me to kill you!

you're not the only one
i'm not sad without you
i'm whispering to you
"enter your past to forget my name!"

pitty faggot

2009-03-20T19:12:00.000-07:00

many people say i'm a bad guy, jerk, slut, faggot or somethin' else.
but hey man..
why dont you care about your self first,
you think you're perfect?
hell no jerk, no body's perfect.
or yeah maybe you're perfect?
you always right?
hahaha...
so you're must be famous than Allah SWT.
congratulations!
you're such a kind of a pitty faggot...
hahahhaa.

if you think i'm jerk ugly or somethin' else?
so what?
i dont need kind of person like that.

so gtfo!
(this is not a song)

what is emo?

2009-03-20T19:10:00.000-07:00

Emo? is it really that bad? you can’t accept the fact that I get a little sad? that I am a little mad? so I favor black and I don’t like pink you use those as reasons to make my soul sink so some of us cut and some of us don’t we can smile, laugh, love, and live we’re just not like the rest sure we cry we want to die but none of you understand it’s not like we had planned to live life like this to spend our days depressed and amiss we’re not bad people we don’t worship satan we’re not out to kill anyone we just don’t like the world as much as everyone else and we don’t like ourselves as much as we could but we’re OK with that you can call us ugly you can call us fat but you can’t change who we are we are emo what’s so wrong with that?

copyright from my drummer FB's a.k.a om owob

one missed call

2009-03-18T04:24:00.001-07:00

you're all i wanna see today
but you're so far away
i hope i can meet you on my dream
because all i need is you

without you im not really okay
im always waiting for your call
im checking my phone
but no calls from you

so i call you up
and hear me say

how are you today
are you allright there?
i miss you i need you
please come back to me

but i call you a thousand times
but no answars
i cant reach you
but its okay

She's smiling when she commited suicide (thx for dhela)

2009-03-18T04:08:00.000-07:00

my hands is full of blood
cause i cant take this anymore
and im start to cry and angry
i just want feel how fun is love
but im tottaly broke
so im dressed to kill

i cant find a way out
so i pull the trigger
im decide to die
and leave all out the memories left behind
and goodnight..

with the bullet inside
and the razor on my hand
im out of control
and im smiling when im commited suicide
but im failed...

my fear is written on my walls
my hands feel rusting away
decision that i've made is the best choice
and now i'm sitting...
i'm bleeding..
unfinished they leave me away...

leave me alone, right on my own
with pretty smiles and lies
please...find my grave.

originally written by xmomondx and dhela.

2009-03-11T16:48:00.000-07:00

apaan seeh hahaha

<----- ini maksudnya apa hayoooo??? kontol banged kan di foto pas lg BERAK! wahahahahha...

<------
hahaha.. yes dude!
we are toilet disorder!

KILL ME SWEET MEMORIES (NEW VERSION)

2009-03-07T01:44:00.000-08:00

You take your heart from me (im losing you!)
this story ends tonight (im bleeding, dying)
this is the last time kill my...
(kill my sweet memories)
JERK!

Never want to see you tonight
behind this door im bleeding
and die...
kill my sweet memories

now im alone without you (scream, cry)
i just can screamoing and cry
the razor cut my throat

with you is my best part of my life
but today is the the worst fucking day
if one day you beg be with me again
even you say "im sorry" were the worst fucking day!
i will say no!

now im alone without you
i jsut can screaming and cry
im cry because of you!

its killing me again
i destroyed because of you
im losing you! and now
i want you die!
and kill my.....
sweet memories!

EVERYTHING IS YOU

2009-03-07T01:36:00.000-08:00

I remember how the first time
i laid my eyes on you
its a beautiful moments
when i look into your eyes
it makes me comfort
you hold my hands and you say that you love me
i just can say i wont let you go

so will you come here tonight
and have date with me
so we can talk for a while
and know each other

on the day that we have the first date
im standing, im steady, im ready, im feeling so shy
and i think that everything is you

THE BEST THING IS....

2009-03-07T01:35:00.000-08:00

And today you kiss me on my cheek
its a gorgeous moment, on the worst boring day
you cheer me up with your smile
when the sun goes down
stay with me forever
on the worst boring day

you are the best thing in my mind
i think you all the time
with smile and you beautiful eyes
remember the time we've kissing on the back door
thats the best thing that i've got

everybodys changing but not my feel to you
on a day just like this you're the best thing in my life

I MISS YOU

2009-03-07T01:26:00.001-08:00

Its a rainy day and the weather is cold
you take my mind cause i've think of you today
yes its true, i like being around you all night long
and its not like playing games
i just wanna let you know
that i miss you

i just want you to know
that everything i've said and did is for you
i dont wanna see a tears in your eyes
this is not a sad or love song
this is the day that i miss you everyday

This is not what i wanted

2009-03-07T01:26:00.000-08:00

I can't find a way out
I never said this is what I wanted,
Should I stay and pretend to smile?
You're a problem, I'll never solve.
Not in the mood to chase, not after these things will never change.
I Hope I'm not the only one
(I'm not afraid to say this)
It can't be true 'cause we're too young

I'm not faithless
With pretty smiles and lies
We say to those who are in love
And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
that's not enough for me
Not to sing in your name

One more second, I may die
So tell me why you have kept me here,
Am I there when your eyes are closed?
If I'm strong and I dig myself out,
that's not enough for me, enough for this stuff.

Only drowning pieces could see...
with his surgery mask,
the jokes are telling this mistakes.
that every second i can suicide.

and tell me why you have...
to kept me here,
am i there when your eyes are closed by,

TURN BACK TIME

2009-03-07T01:19:00.001-08:00

There is love i hope, the fear is deep within'
without your heart, im feeling contangiuos
when you're gone, im feel empty

memories has burn like opening the wounds
its tearing me apart again
i hurt much more than before and i know that in die again
im not the only one

share with me
cause my habit wont stop tearing my heart
im still psycho everytime
i just wanna turn back time

take me out
open your eyes
my fear ends now!
i realize that i will be not alone

THINK OF YOU

2009-03-07T01:19:00.000-08:00

Well im tired being alone
my love story never good
so i turn on the radio so loud
i dont care everybody else

and then i meet you there
i like being around you
oh! its so fun and fun
i realize that im in love with you

on and on we'll carry on
this song is for you
cause everyday and everynight
i've think of you all the time

LIPSTICK NEVER LIE

2009-03-07T01:15:00.000-08:00

you smile with your lipstick
curse the silent night
in the end of the world
im sure that im not wrong
cause lipstick never lie

can you see me?
crwaling into your bed
slice your head and i scream "GO TO HELL"
im so depressed cause you're leave me all alone

i know that, you're just lie to me,
cause the lipstick on your lips told me, that you're just a liar!
die you LIAR!
LIAR!
die you FUCKING!
LIAR!

SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY

2009-03-07T01:09:00.000-08:00

All the moments from the past
everlasting memories
i know that true, it stay in my mind
i'll drop all my tears for the fear behind you voice
cause in my brain, its so far deep within'
my neighbourhood just see me drowned
and i still remember when the first time we've meet
its on the park, you blessed me with your eyes
and i just wanna say

i remember the memories of you and me
please keep stay with me forever, like romeo and juliet
its a beautiful ending, like a fairy tale
its seems like yesterday
i know...

that you dont believe me anymore
but i just want you to know

and im praying that you will see
cause im so alive when you here
and looking into your eyes...

ADORED BY DISASTER

2009-03-07T01:03:00.000-08:00

Last words in my mind is
"this is the end" why this is the end
the curse makes me dying
for i am death
begging for apologies, crying from first to last
dressed to kill, she pull the trigger, make a sense of wrong direction
sins is the only one that can change the fact!
leave a scars

dont care about me im okay
lessons of broken heart
its like the way that im runaway
im adored by disaster

thank you for the bless
throw our self against the wall

im drowning, its killing me

tear my tears, face to face
its strange, depressed, envy me, bleeding!
forget the past, forget the mistakes!

im blessed, i feel okay. cause the disaster!
without you im so alive, BITCH!

SATU LANGKAH TERAKHIR

2009-03-07T00:58:00.000-08:00

Diam, kuhanya bisa terdiam disini
melihat semuanya berlalu tanpa henti
lelah ku disini tanpa berkata-kata
didalam dunia yang selalu menyiksa
dan dimana semua yg sempurna telah sirna
ketika semua orang merasa itu semua adalah miliknya
erampas hak orang dan hanya bisa menindas
namun, akan kubuktikan kepada mereka
semuanya, berakhir...

satu langkah terakhir
kuhempaskan semua dan teriak
apakah semuanya telah sirna
tanpa satupun yang terbaik
tak ada yang sempurna

terpuruk dan terjatuh
tak ada pilihan
semua kata yang kau muntahkan
membuat ku terhina

berharap tuk kembali
lepaskan semua kenangan
yang terpahit

kucaci maki semua,tertawa,menangis,disaat semua berpaling dariku
hanya bisa teriak, ANJING!

introducing time!

2009-03-05T02:52:00.000-08:00

Hell-o fellas, Introducing time!
I'm Alief Michikonomond Ashary Marvica
You can call me momondkey
even its not my real name
i hate seafood and i'm a vegetariant
i'm ugly, so fucking what jerk?
i'm vocalist from askingforhelp,

and this blog is for putting the lyrics that i've made :D
and some of my lyrics has added on my band songs